Love。LALA。101。

倉央嘉措的文字。
那年，從西藏帶回了一本西藏傳奇故事，故事沒有提到倉央嘉措，翻開書頁的第一面，印著:
那一刻　我昇起風馬　不為乞福　只為守候你的到來
那一日　疊起瑪尼堆　不為修德　只為投下心湖的石子
那一月　我搖動所有的經筒　不為超度　只為觸摸你的指尖
那一年　磕長頭在山路　不為覲見　只為貼著你的溫暖
這一世轉山　不為輪迴　只為途中與你相見

那是另一面,另一個生活圈.
也可能只是一個PARTY!
"下午要練習嗎?"
"你不是沒時間?"
"有啊!可是要早一點,我們DEPARTMENT有固定的聚會"
"幾點?"
"兩點半好不好?"
"好啊!" 從來,對於這種差半個小時的時間,我不會有什麼不好.
"那練習結束之後,你要不要一起來我們DEPARTMENT的活動?"
"好啊!"
"這次是我主辦的,有一些CHINATOWN點心跟珍珠奶茶...."
Stephen練習太極拳的時候,一直心不在焉的注意時間,真的很想把他趕回去.
把他的動作糾正了幾次,又讓他演練了幾次,時間也差不多他該走了.
"我先走,妳自己再練吧!我不想遲到,等一下妳自己過來...."
"我不知道在哪裡啊?"
"那妳到34th跟walnut我出來接妳."
"OK!快去!" 主辦遲到不好吧!!
我也不想因為要跟他去就不做平常的練習.
慣例是我先教他,然後我再自己從頭到尾打一次,然後我們練練SALSA或一起離開.
沒錯,我是師父他是徒弟!!就太極拳而言....
34th and walnut
我打了電話,手機響了幾聲進語音,懶得留言了.
四點半,聚會剛開始.
信步走到他們的BUILDING,呵呵,我怎會不知道呢!只是有時候,不想記得自己知道而已!
坐在building外的長椅上,等了二十分鐘.沒有回電.
我又打了一次電話,走到附近的咖啡館晃了一下,留言:
"hello,我到了.在STARBUCKS喝咖啡!!"
轉到旁邊的書店去,挑起了一本小說才要翻開,聽見FIR"你的微笑"響了起來....
想到我啦!可惡的傢伙....我接起手機
"對不起..."帶著廣東腔的聲音很好聽的撒嬌....
"沒關係囉!!"最好是大家看著辦....
"妳在哪裡?"
"bookstore,starbucks旁邊的..."
"那妳走過來33跟WALNUT...."
"什麼...你說哪裡..."
我也不知道自己是故意裝傻,還是真的沒聽清楚,無所謂,這些都不是重點.
重點是,"妳不要動,我過來接妳好了,妳在哪裡?"
"starbuscks前面"
"好,我等一下就來了"
我回到STARBUCKS外,挑了一張椅子坐下,你的微笑又響了...
"妳看到我了嗎?往SPRUCE的方向..."
"沒有"不過趕打賭他已經看到我了,天空藍的雪衣,就是搶眼.
"我在對面..."
我張望了一下,小姐愛美,非必要不戴眼鏡.
"看到了嗎?我在跟妳揮手啊!"
"看到了" 我微笑,爽快的掛了電話.等著紅綠燈過馬路,他在對面的路口等我...
"對不起...我把手機放在外套口袋了,外套放在旁邊沒聽到...
一直到剛剛確定大家都有東西吃了,才發現還有一個人還沒來...先吃一點紅豆冰吧!"
他拿著一杯紅豆牛奶還有一些冰塊.
"我不要吃冰的,現在很冷呢!主辦很忙哦?!"
"東西都被吃光了..."
"那珍珠奶茶呢?!"珍珠奶茶是我一定要關心的話題.
"都沒有了..."
"你欠我..."
"對,I owe you bobble tea..."
"都沒東西了哦!幸好我跑去喝咖啡了,那我來幹嘛?"
"還有蛋塔啊...妳怎麼不早點來..."
"我很早就打電話給你了啊..."他拉開第一道門,我先走順手推開第二道門.
自己卻愣了一下,人在國外總覺得應該要等他拉門的.
"那來看第一通MISS CALL的時間就知道了..."
"好啊..." 誰怕誰...
他按了電梯."妳不喜歡吃紅豆冰嗎?"
"現在不想吃冰的,我喜歡吃紅豆湯..."進了電梯.
"在三樓...紅豆湯..."
"就是紅豆糖水啊!"我換了一個香港人的說法...
我跟著他,想不起來他的表情,甚至忘了自己到底有沒有好好看著他.
他說不定覺得我的注意力都在食物上吧!
"這裡有蛋塔,有椰酥...妳有吃過椰酥嗎?"
"沒有..."我張望了一下,拿起蛋塔吃了一口,才覺得乾...
"那邊有飲料...."
我拿著蛋塔繞過他,一手還拿著蛋塔,一手拿起飲料研究...鋁箔包,透明包裝六個一組.
我呆了一下,所以想喝飲料,要拆掉透明包裝紙,拿出一罐,拆掉吸管包裝,插進飲料裡...這些動作太複雜.
我思考了一下,依依不捨的放下手中的蛋塔....開始拆掉透明包裝紙...
"妳要喝什麼?我幫妳弄..."正在跟朋友說話的他,突然轉過來...
先生?!這種話以後早點說好嗎?我都放下蛋塔開始拆包裝了...
我無言...頓了一下,繼續拆手中的透明包裝,拿出一罐菊花茶,擱到他手邊的桌上...拿起我的蛋塔.
他拿起菊花茶,拆掉吸管包裝,插好吸管...遞給我...
"謝謝..."我吃著蛋塔,喝著菊花茶.
"這些都是我們department的人....這是...."他帶我認識他的朋友,幾個大陸朋友,
名字說的很快,我一時也記不清誰是誰,反正等一下大家還是要再問一次名字的...我跟這幾個大陸男生聊了起來.
Computer Science,男生,能聊什麼? 還不是你從哪來的?還喜歡這裡嗎?來多久了?
一個老外抱著個兩個月大的嬰兒,背對著我跟Stephen聊著...
我大概也知道這是誰了....
"Let me introduce you my friend, Sandra..." Stephen突然跟老外說,老外抱著BABY轉過來.
"Nice to meet you!"我空出一隻手.
"this is my adviser, Steve"
"Nice to meet you"對方也從抱著BABY空出一手,跟我輕握了一下.
"This is my daughter"爸爸介紹著女兒...
我笑了一下,對著小嬰兒說,"What's your name?"
"Her name is Ally....
旁邊的人開始討論起BABY的名字.
我跟Stephen交換了一個微笑,我轉回來繼續跟幾個大陸朋友聊天,他則繼續跟其他外國朋友聊.
聊沒三句....又來了....
"let me introduce you my friend, Sandra"
"Nice to meet you"
"This is my partner for this project.
He will go to UK with me and we will have the presentation together..."
"Nice to meet you..."
"Sandra teaches me Taichi...."
大家試著聊了幾句,不過這個老外腔調很重,小姐我實在是耳朵不太好.
顯然老外對電腦還是比較有興趣,他們聊著下禮拜要去英國的一些事情,還有PRESENTATION的東西.
我微笑著站在Stephen旁邊,有聽當然就有懂!不過也不用宣告自己懂啦!可是我的蛋塔沒有了!!
"Excuse me!"民以食為天.我繞過Stephen找吃的去.
找著吃的,我站在Stephen的背後,聽著他跟老外的對話.微笑,不打算加入.
Stephen突然又停下來,因為大方桌對面出現兩個亞洲女生.
他又開始跟我介紹,我跟兩個女生打過招呼.Stephen繼續回去跟老外聊天,我隔著桌子跟兩個女生講話.
"妳過來吧!這樣聽不清楚..."
"好啊...."我繞過去,站到兩個女生中間.
"他是妳男朋友嗎?"

I was sososo surprised when Heather told me that she bought a cake for me.
"What for?"
"For your graduation!!"
我瞪大了眼,感動莫名,我們不是常常見面的朋友,她卻總是很貼心.
幾天前,我跟胡婷在樓梯口聊了幾句,鵬輝大力相助辦了一個POTLUCK!!
幾個朋友都來了,除了有事跑到科羅拉多去的凡奇跟鈺莉.Stephen也來了.
原本只是開開玩笑的說,就當是我的畢業party.
Heather was so sweet!! She brought a cake to me!!
Potluck 我們遲到了,到的時候大家也都吃半飽了,我很興奮的跟大家說了Heather的禮物.
跟這群人在一起最輕鬆了,大家有話直說,不拐彎不抹腳,不耍心機. 鵬輝跟羅毅是我最先認識的,陸怡跟翁偉俊是最照顧我的後媽後爸,胡婷是氣味相投的開朗直爽大姊,程瑛總是安安靜靜的觀察,方蕾才剛認識卻也很投緣.這群人裡,我年紀最小,大家也就自然而然把我當小妹照顧.
會想留在費城,多半也是因為有這群朋友的關心跟體貼.
吃過飯,玩玩小遊戲,切蛋糕,大家輪流講祝福語,還要重複前人講的,祝福記憶大考驗.
感動,是文字很難表達的情緒. 那不是一種快樂喜悅,是心情莫名的五味雜陳,激越起伏,暖暖的流過心裡,一個人,一群人的關心. 真心誠意.

I can't really tell what makes Stephen become a little different after I came back from New York. Feel a little different but still.
無庸置疑,我在乎他的感受.雖然我能然是做著自己的事情,他偶爾還是會冒出來.
上星期三,因為他的失約,我選擇留在家裡休息,沒有去Brazil跳舞.I told him that I was too tired to go. Anyway, we both know the reason that I am not going even though I didn't tell.
Last Friday, I invited Martina to my place for some coffee. We talked about my dance with Stephen, some interaction with him, and also the reason that I didn't go to Brazil on Wednesday. I sort of asking Martina whether she cares if Stephen and I went out. Her reponse was totally fine even it seemed not fine at all. She cares about him otherwise she would had let go.
Came back from NY on Tuesday, Hsin-I, Nitin, Stephen and I had dinner together on Wednesday. Well, something different in his mind. I know but what's that? Wednesday night, as usual, Brazil. Honestly, I was so happy that Hsin-I could make it. Talked with God Mother, I decided not to tell Martina anything about Stephen anymore. Things should only between us, me and Stephen.
Thursday, I was so tired after the long trip in New York. After Hsin-I's taking off. Slept until 3pm. still wondering whether I should go to the salsa class. My body moved automatically dressed up, walked out, and went to the class. The class was only fine to me 'cos I didn't feel the connection. It has been a while since I came back from NY. What's wrong?! Somehow, I know it's natural. We both are still "looking"
After class, he practiced with Martina. Me with Nitin. Nitin and he needed to go for meeting. I waited for Martina. She told me that she has to report me that they had potluck while I was in NY. She actully asked Stephen the reason that he couldn't pick me up on Wednesday as he promised. She told him that I am angry with his not picking me up.
I stunned. Hey, girl, mind your own business. Well, of course, I didn't tell her like this.
Somehow, obviously, I was not happy that she cross the line.
"it doesn't matter whether he is picking me up or not. i can always go by myself if i want. and that day, i choose not to go. that's my choice and it has nothing to do with whether he is picking me up".....anyway, it does matter and we all know. It's not necessary to tell.
I am not happy that she does the talk for me. I am the one who should and would communicate with the person I want to communicate. Especially to Stephen,I would talk to him directly. Things happen between Stephen and I should stay between us. If we need to communicate, we know how to talk with each other.
I was angry with her intentional control. I was worried about me and Stephen. Somehow, he has known that I am not happy. As for reason, he explains to her but not to me. SO? For me, I don't want to know the reason. I simply know that I was put in the second position. That's enough for my unsatisfication. The reason may be a good one but it doesn't change the truth that I was not taken care.
Also, I directly expressed my feeling or unsatisfication to Stephen.
Wednesday.
Talking about waiting and on time, I said..." Well, I am not going to waiting in the cold wind because I am on time." We both know what we are talking about.This is it.

"我在Center City 跟朋友吃飯." 他說. 在我下了課打電話給他的時候.
WHAT!!我不爽的情緒開始冒了上來.
"So...you're not going to Brazil tonight?"
"I wanna go...but I will have presentation tonight. It's gonna be too late after my presentation."
"I won't go to the first class tonight so I will go on 9:30. Will you be finished the class?"
"Mmm...9:30, I think so."
"We can go from 9:30."
"Sure!"
"Call me after your class, I will wait for you."
很好!言猶在耳!!
"Let me call Nitin, you can come with him."
"I am at school now, maybe I can just go by myself."
"You don't want to come with Nitin? I was thinking that you can come with Nitin. Let me ask Nitin to call you ok?""
"Well.....whatever, that's fine!"
小姐決定回家!天寒地凍,拿著手機的手凍到沒有知覺.期末報告dress code,兩腿在絲質長褲裡直發抖.
Going or not going?
電話響了!
"Hi Nitin."
"Hi, Sandra. So, are you ready to go?"
"I am on my way home. I want to go home first."
"So, do you want to go or not?"
"Yup, I wanna go. Hey, Nitin, why don't you just go and I can go by myself."
"No, no...let's go together. we can share the taxi."
"Well, ok. where are you now? Can we meet in the I-house?"
"Ok, you go home first and we meet in the I-house."
"See you later then."
不爽!不爽!不爽!
我打了電話給遠在L.A.的好友.她說她也不知道,不然就原諒他吧!也許他臨時有事也說不定.雖然對不起好友,但我知道我們都是好人.直覺上,這不是我要情況,沒有原諒這回事,他可以不來接我,他可以臨時有事,他可以請他的好朋友來接我,但是要事先告訴我,在他這樣計畫的時候.
進入公寓大廳,我還有點小猶豫,跟警衛阿姨小聊了一下.
"If you don't feel good then don't go."
"Mmmm....."
"You don't look that you are happy, do you?"
"No, I am not happy with his not picking me up and asking his friend instead. He should tell me if this was his plan originally."
"That's right. He uses his time with other friends and make you accept his arrangement"
"But, as a friend...."
"As a friend, you do whatever you want to do. You don't need to accept anything if you don't like it!"
"Right..." I pulled out the cell phone phone and called Nitin. I told him that I am so tired after the presentation so I am not going anywhere tonight. Thanks him for waiting for me. Nitin said that he totally understand. Finished the conversation, I turned off the cell phone and smiled.
"See...Now you are smiling. This is exactly what you want." The guard, Jaunita, said."Listen, you are not going because you don't feel good. It doesn't matter what other people feel."
"Should I give hime a call and tell him that I am not going?"
"Yes, you can."
I thought a second."No, that's fine. If I am not there, then I am not there.I don't need to report to anyone."
"Hahaha.....that's right."
"Maybe this is his way to tell me that he doesn't like me as I expect."
"Maybe, but this is not the reason of your action. You do whatever you want. You don't need to analyze."
"Hahaha....I got you!" I laugh then stopped. The phone was ringing.
"It's him." I said to Jaunita and picked up the phone.
"Hello!"
"為什麼不來呢?"
"我覺得好累哦!"
"Presentation 怎麼樣呢?"
"I don't know, but everyone came to me and said good job. I guess it was fine."
"妳是不是不喜歡Nitin陪妳來啊?"
"No...I just came home and feel so relaxed so doesn't want to go out anymore." 我笑著說,不知不覺還是很開心. 拜託,就算是我也不會承認的啦!!而且Nitin本來就是無辜的啊!!
"真的不來?"
"嗯!Have fun!!" 收線,掰掰!!
跟警衛阿姨又聊了一個小時,我才會房間去,我知道回去一個人絕對鐵定百分之百胡思亂想.
重點跟他喜不喜歡我沒關係,也跟我喜不喜歡他沒關係.
重點是 小˙姐˙不˙爽˙
好啦!!
結論,只要小姐不高興,不爽,不愛,不喜歡,我就不要.
見不到你也無所謂,不跟你一起跳舞也無所謂,我現在不要就是不要.
I demand high maintenance.

前一個星期五,跑到La Luna去跳舞,他拿著餐巾紙,開玩笑得幫我擦手汗,接著拿著紙巾幫我擦汗,沿著臉.
我接過紙巾,幫自己又拭了幾下,他說自己很會流汗,我拿著紙巾也在他額頭上擦了幾下.
那時候,我跳得累了,不喜歡對方貼著我的身體廝磨.走離開舞池,向他伸出手,他自然而然的拉過我的手,牽著,兩個人站在一起,一會才放開.
喜歡一些小細節,開瓶蓋的小細節,我講電話很溫柔他的調侃.
為了跟Martina去聽一場音樂會,跑到downtwon去跟Phyllis拿PENN card.
晚餐時分接到Stephen的電話,問我要不要一起去Nitin家吃晚餐.因為事先約好的音樂會,很遺憾只能回絕了.
整場音樂會,都想著他.跟martina卻沒辦法說,前任男女朋友的關係加上一個好朋友.
星期一大雪,Phyllis來我家念書.約了Stephen練拳,剛開始雪也不大,接著雪越下越大,他打電話跟我確認,說要來我家練,
我想都沒想就說了不行,說一,我家不夠大. 二,朋友在我家念書.那晚一點吧,下次的意思.約了星期二吃飯的時間.
被Phyllis追問,說了一些關於Stephen的事. 開始擔心,這樣一來我跟他的關係會變得很亂.
星期二Penn Inn,是PENN的graduate student辦的活動.
我們看著對方講話,眼神交會,總有一點好奇跟心動.
後來分別跟其他朋友說話,聊天時兩個人有默契的相視一笑,他不自覺就替我回答了對方問我的問題.
我說話時可以感覺到他的視線專注的看著我.麵包上來時,用同一個盤子吃麵包.喝咖啡知道加牛奶不加糖.
他說:那邊那個男的一直在看妳.我回過頭去看了一眼,轉回來一副他亂說話.
他又說:幹麻這種表情.我說:你確定是在看我,不是在看你?
他笑了,笑我頑皮.
星期三一起練拳,我說明天來煮愛爾蘭咖啡吧!
妳真的很閒哦.
也不是很閒,反正明天的SALSA取消了.
好啊,中午吧!我帶午餐來.練過太極拳,又跳了一會SALSA.
晚上,跟Martina還有Lee一起去Bazil跳SALSA.說到ALAN的事,Martina說現在早就改朝換代了.
舞池裡,還消遣我,說我一直跟男人調情.我說我沒有,他笑了.
她知道了嗎?我應該讓她知道嗎?
回程的路上,Stephen不知道在做什麼,一直跟我鬧,還用腳打我屁股.
我是你的老師呢!我也是妳的老師啊!我們跳舞越來越知道對方的習慣了!
星期四,他來聊了很多,中間也一直被我網上的朋友打斷,浴室忘了收拾,很糗. 他留下了查過的信箱,忘了登出.
我花了一個半小時,大略瀏覽了一遍,好奇.也不能怎樣,現在好想忘記.
星期五,打扮的美美的,卻格格不入,看看sexy definition吧!!忘了說,我們跳舞的距離更近了.
星期六,烏龍事件晚餐的聚會只有我沒有參加!!
我在意他打電話問Martina,再三確認她真的不去嗎?
SHAMPOO我在意他跟朋友性感的跳舞,直到....
我跟他摟在一起,雙膝交錯,我倚在他的肩上,他緊緊抱著我,隨著音樂舞動著.幾次音樂轉換,我以為他要鬆開,他卻摟得更緊.
旋轉著,扭曲纏繞的肢體,撫著對方的背,沿著下滑又回到背脊頸子,肩膀,胸口,小腹...
我吻著他的脖子胸口,他用下巴磨蹭著我的肩頸.緊緊的抱著對方,不想分開,好緊好緊,快要不能呼吸還是要抱著.
十指交錯,誰也不放手.
直到朋友來叫我們該走了.怎麼辦? 我們跳過一支舞,我們跳了一支舞.
星期日他來接我一起去上SALSA的課接著練習太極.知道他晚上有約朋友吃飯,我介意了,所以JOE爸說我看起來很憔悴.
接著我開了三個小時的會,晚上不去SALSA.

The streets look so dangerous!!
開著車, 轉著轉著路漸漸暗了, 週遭的黑人越來越多, 跟著地圖尋找著今天晚上的目的地.
Stephen is so crazy about Salsa.
他把訊尋轉給大家, 採自動報名制. 每次有SALSA的活動,他總是特別熱衷, 傳訊息EMAIL, setting up the schedule, and
driving us around.
還沒說說Stephen 這個人呢! 我總想回去把空白的日記補上, 記下那些溫馨的小細節, 好感覺總是想留下一些些印記.
先說昨晚吧!
Stephen, Nitin, Martina and me. Martina is a close friend of mine and is the ex-gf of Stephen.
Well..., actually, I know Stephen through Martina, the special and important friend of mine in this city.
一路上我們聊得很愉快, Nitin, an Indian, is Stephen's best friend here. 聊天聊得起勁, 錯過了路口幾次.
雖然我每次出門都打扮得美美, 不得不承認, 跟Stephen出去, 我還是會特別想一下要穿什麼.
而昨晚跟我預期的完全不同.
黑色的長袖窄腰上衣, 胸前大牡丹花的圖樣反射著微微的光線, 紫藍色A字裙一層優雅的碎花薄紗, 配上黑色中統細靴.
這樣的服飾, 之前去跳拉丁舞SALSA的經驗而言, 完全的優雅浪漫兼性感.
可是遇到昨晚的場合就完全行不通了. 我們之所以會到這裡來, 全是衝著當晚的表演.
剛去的時候,舞池幾乎是空無一人, 隨著時間越晚人越來越多, 一個穿的比一個辣, 舞技一個比一個好, 顯得過度優雅的我, 好像來錯了地方.
我也挺嘔的, 一向我的打扮, 套句Martina的話, dress to kill.
我喜歡成為大家注目的焦點, 尤其是他的焦點, 昨晚.
原來滿心欣喜卻顯得格格不入.
Stephen 很積極主動的跟在場的性感美女們邀舞. 我是初學者, 雖然不是很懂, 我想他是跳得很好的, 看得出他的熱情跟野心.
多半時間, 我跟Martina在聊天, 跟Nitin跳了幾隻舞, 也跟Stephen跳了幾隻舞.
害羞的Nitin在我跟Martina的鼓勵下,開始主動跟在場的武林高手邀舞, 我們這兩位男士真的很不錯呢! 於有榮焉.
Stephen一支舞下來, 總要休息一下, 超容易流汗的他, 常常整件襯衫都濕了. 還有過, 舞伴不肯把手搭在他的肩上, 因為他溼透的襯衫.
那時舞池裡沒有很多人, 卻有一對跳得非常好.
我坐著Stephen站在我身邊, 一起看著舞池裡精湛的舞技. 一曲結束,我拍拍Stephen說:Ask her for the next dance.
他應該有聽清楚吧! 還是裝傻, 就在我還要開口跟他說時, 性感的舞林辣妹走過來對我說: Would you mind if I dance with him?
我有聽到, 只是不確定有沒有聽清楚嘛!
對方有重複了一次.
Stephen一笑, 放下手中的礦泉水, 拉起對方的手, 回到舞池SLASA.
我則回去繼續跟Nitin, Martina 聊天.
有位男士過來邀Martina跳舞. Nitin跟我繼續旅行的話題,舞池裡發生什麼大事並不在我們的討論範圍之內.
曲畢, Stephen回來問我說: 有看到嗎?
什麼? 我一臉茫然,這是我面對他常有的招牌表情.
剛剛的舞啊! 他一副我就知道.
哦! I was talking with Nitin. 她很不錯吧!
嗯! 她跳得很好, 妳應該看的.
我笑說: 我剛剛就是要你邀她跳舞, 沒想到他就過來找你了. 她一定是在這之前就注意到你了.
Stephen用他的招牌微笑看著我. 我也很大方的讓他看啊!!我可是誠心誠意的在誇他哦!
昨晚,自己覺得被冷落,後來偏頭痛,都是多餘的,現在回想起來似乎沒有那麼不愉快.
好朋友的位置,不需要太多的注意力.
這也是我們現在相處得很愉快的原因之一吧!
希望對方的注意力完全放在自己身上,才有失落,幸好昨天的偏頭痛掩飾了一點情緒不佳.
女人嘛! 總是有那麼一點虛榮的私心.
跳拉丁舞,女人嘛! 無一不就是性感.
爵士舞練了一年, 女人嘛! 還是可以性感的.
性感的定義因人而異, 跟人家一樣就沒特色了!!
女人嘛! 只要讓自己很有魅力,其他的...mmm...套句Ms. Martha 說的話, not worth to study into it

March 4, 2005

前天, 在台灣的網友問我: 是否, 還會想念很忙碌的那個人.
昨晚, 跟朋友去跳SALSA, 在CLUB裡跟好友提了這件事.
好友覺得好笑, 說: 那是什麼時候的人啦!陷在早就換....我預期她會說出一個名字, 她的前男友. 她停頓了一下,說....現在早就改朝換代了.
我笑說, 對啊! 誰還管他啊!
那個忙碌的男人, 似乎已經消失在我的生活中了, 歸屬於既熟悉又陌生的代名詞, 朋友.
最近, 似乎完全換了一個生活圈.
教太極拳, 學SALSA, CPA EXAM, 三件事情把生活填得滿滿的.
很多時間都跟同一個朋友在一起, 漸漸也熟了起來, 跟著走進彼此的生活.
因為那個忙碌人事件, 我變了, 對感情的態度跟看法變了.
更知道自己要什麼, 所以變了.
以往認為兩個人要在一起才可以互相照顧關心.
朋友的距離很適當, 關心不干涉, 照顧不勉強.
把心打開來, 朋友之間互相照顧關心, 很直截了當的感覺, 不去在乎是否要美美的出現, 是否要說話得體.
這才是我現在要的生活.
Relationship is something more than serious and sincere, responsibility.
Follow & Lead.

"哈哈!! 亞歷士，你別開......." 玩笑了。
寧夏的話還沒說完，含在了嘴裡。
藍齊彷彿全身的著了火，闖進亞歷士的書房，一把火燒掉整間書房。
"藍...."

不同於倫敦，不同於巴黎，紐約連空氣都很自由。
華爾街，即使有兩年前雷曼兄弟的金融風暴，依舊是全球金融業的指標地。
"你看什麼？" 大衛‧貝里斯剛開完會，回到自己的辦公室，就看到藍齊這個不速之客，手上捲成筒的雜誌往兄弟肩上招呼。
"沒什麼。"藍齊離開玻璃帷幕，坐回沙發上。